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The other day I slowly began to realize Every time I moved, I shook. Every word I spoke, Was uncertain. In losing touch with reality, I'm losing touch with my body. I don't physically feel Like I used to. I don't feel normal when around others Like I used to. I've tucked myself so far within this being, That I can't feel with its fingertips. It feels foreign, And every day gets harder. The thought of dying Blows through the wind more than I'd like, And it wears me to the core, Revealing bones I haven't seen, Raw and brittle. I don't know how much longer I'll last, These internal fights keep torturing me, I'm growing weak.. And the best p

You see me, there... From the outside. But, what do you really see? I bet it looks, like, like I have my life together. It looks like I'm a success. You look at me and think "What? What could possibly go wrong for her?" You look at me, and who you see, is not really who I see -- at all. I'm the one Still standing tall The one who seems To have survived the fall I'm the one With the strongest heart The one who seems To not fall apart I'm the one Who has it all together At least from what they see I'm someone better But deep inside That's so untrue I'm broken even more Than you But what would you say How would you act If you saw me fal

Your hands touch mine, i must hurry we're out of time.. back into the dark I go. If only i can see you in the light, watch you shine like the way they describe the sun. I wait for the day when the sun and moon collide. To hold you in the beautiful light, where the flowers bloom, and the children grow. I'll hold onto this wish until a meteor shower comes, that way it will come true. Oh if i could only see the color of your eyes glimmer and glisten, i could be satisfied. What does the sun feel like when it touches your skin. Does it warm you down or heat you up? Please make me come true and not just a lover in your dreams. If only you knew tha

I just wanna lay next to you And prove to you that I'm Probably not worth your time But still, there's nothing I want more Than to be with you alone Be with you at last And forget about everything and all Forget that we're not perfect, that we fall That tomorrow might be worse than bad That this life leaves us more than sad Just for tonight I want you To tell me that it's alright To tell me it's still worth the fight To be my only light Just for tonight I wanna feel At peace with myself and you That you care and that it's true That loving life is a right thing to do Just for tonight I don't wanna cry But be happy under the gloomy sky And b

Maybe I could talk to you But what would I say That I don't have it together Still Living day to day Yeah, maybe I could talk to you To tell you things ain't better Let you know you were right Because I can't forget her Maybe we could speak Maybe I could pick up the phone And remove all doubt That I feel alone Or just pick up a pen Maybe write you a letter Prove that I'm a coward And couldn't think of something better Either way there is no question I can't forget her, Ill think of her forever.

You can trample me, You can destroy me, You can rip me limb from limb, You can turn my skin Black and Blue, But no matter what you do to me, A part of me is always left for you.

I hate that I still Have dreams with you in them. I hate that I saw your face, That I felt your embrace. I hate that I still remember things, Like the colour of your eyes And the things you like. I'm tired of seeing your name, And I'm mad at myself For clinging to our old photos. You were once everything to me, Until you took yourself away from me. You've destroyed me, You've pushed me down this path, Where I know it's not your fault, But all my mind whispers is the opposite. I'm tired of remembering you telling me It wasn't my fault, When everything else in me screams otherwise. I'm tired of wanting to apologize, For how terrible I wa

For what it's worth, I miss you. But I miss our memories the most. I miss every laugh, Every call, Every stream, Every awkward silence. I miss talking to you all night, And popping awake when I heard the notification. I miss sharing things with you And getting your opinion when I'm unsure, Which is always. I miss the warmth you rarely showed, But I basked in it, And was most happy when you showed Any type of care for me And how I was feeling. I miss someone I used to know, Or thought I knew, I miss the one I fell for before anyone else, The one I couldn't have but wanted all the same. My best friend, My colour in the sea of grey, Gone, B

It's hard to stay happy When the person you want to share it with Isn't. It's hard to hold on, When you get nervous Because it's only you Holding yourself up. It's hard to forget a love, When they used to be all You'd think or dream about. And it's hard when You finally get into a bubbly mood Just to have it be ignored Or lonely Or.. It's gone. Floats right from your Palm. And you lose your happy Lose your grip and stumble. And when I stumble, I fall hard. Landing on the cold rough earth With scraped hands and knees. But according to them, "It's where you belong."